You know what? I hate html.I wish I was doing almost anything else.Like getting laid. I could be having sex right now, but noooo.I watched Utena lose her virginity again this weekend.That scene is so hot.The fine line between obsession and madness is... what was I saying?GIRL ON GIRL ACTION!!!I want that outfit. I like red and black. What a surprise.This layout took forever to get just right. But that was because I took so many breaks.I never ate glue in kindergarten. Hard to tell, huh?Gio keeps talking about food. What a bitch.LEGS.See, I'm being productive. Now if only I could do this at work, where productive is just a dream...GODDAMMIT STOP TALKING ABOUT FOODYou know, those are the only important things in life. Food, sex, and sleep.Everything else is just window dressing.I have to clean my house still. That sucks.I hate cleaning. I should buy maids.I want to go to a museum, but I don't want to get out of my jammies.I suck at being energetic.Funny, you don't look Druish.

 HAH I BEAT YOU YOU AWFUL RIBBON hate you so much

Arki - ...Sandwich.

   Dreamt 1/9/07.

   Yes, well... I only remember bits and pieces. Who knows what other nasty things have happened in my subconscious that I'm not aware of.

   I was in my room, sitting on the bed and doing nothing. Hey! It's kinda like real life! That is, until I got a knock on the door and Ruka came in, looking a little miserable (like in that scene after Juri slaps him, hehe). He walks over to me and I sit up for no aparent reason, while he feels his way down with his hand, starting from my chest and ending between my legs. He still looks miserable and now I do too, since I started to feel uncomfortable.

   Somehow (dispite the fact that I could hear my parents voices in the other room) we got naked and went to do the nasties. The only problem was that instead of a penis, Ruka had a long sandwich.

   Either that, or his penis was inside the sandwich. Wait, it gets worse! For some honest to God unknown reason, I didn't care about that and just layed down on the bed while he got on top and fucked me with the penis sandwich (I swear, I will never look at the Subway sandwiches the same way.).

   Though I was sexin', I started thinking about how maybe I can be straight after all and perhaps this is the kind of relationship I was waiting for. It doesn't even matter if it was with my brother, as long as this is the way it's going to be. Yes. Aparently, Ruka was my brother. (Yay for SKU influence.) Note, that I was stone-cold the whole time.

   *some scenes missing*

   Now I'm at my cousins place. More accurately, in her room. She's nowhere to be seen, but Ruka is standing by the window and looking out to the street, with his arms crossed. He was wearing his usual uniform. He turned around and looked at me with the same miserable expression from before. It was the "I know this is wrong, I know you don't like it, but I want to do it again" expression.

   Wheather I had sex with him again or not, I'm not sure. I think I did, but I also remember never letting go of the door knob, just closing the door and leaving the room in a very Anthy-like, last episode way. My last words were: "At least now I'm clean, because I haven't opened the book in years."