You know what? I hate html.I wish I was doing almost anything else.Like getting laid. I could be having sex right now, but noooo.I watched Utena lose her virginity again this weekend.That scene is so hot.The fine line between obsession and madness is... what was I saying?GIRL ON GIRL ACTION!!!I want that outfit. I like red and black. What a surprise.This layout took forever to get just right. But that was because I took so many breaks.I never ate glue in kindergarten. Hard to tell, huh?Gio keeps talking about food. What a bitch.LEGS.See, I'm being productive. Now if only I could do this at work, where productive is just a dream...GODDAMMIT STOP TALKING ABOUT FOODYou know, those are the only important things in life. Food, sex, and sleep.Everything else is just window dressing.I have to clean my house still. That sucks.I hate cleaning. I should buy maids.I want to go to a museum, but I don't want to get out of my jammies.I suck at being energetic.Funny, you don't look Druish.


Chelle - Heat and Rose

   Well, this isn't exactly a dream, more of a hallucination. My boyfriend of four years (also an Utena fan) had just broken up with me (he'd gone off to college and suddenly decided he wanted the chance to run around and 'sample' guilt free), and I was still pretty depressed. I was home alone and decided to fill part of my dreary void with watching the Utena movie. Later, I went out to our hot tub in the back of the house to relax, and after being in there for a while my mind became distracted by numerous deep and consuming thoughts, and I didn't realize when I suddenly began to overheat. When I began to feel dizzy and weak, I realized I was getting much too hot. I pulled myself out of the tub and layed down on the hard cover that I had only half pulled off, lying flat so that my body would cool, now raised away from the heat. The heat had struck me so badly that I soon lost consciousness after pulling myself up to cool.

I don't know how long it was before I began to come to, but I began to regain consciousness enough to hear a voice, though all I saw was still darkness. The voice kept repeating "Leave me in my coffin." and it took a little while for me to realize it was my own voice. I then realized that my lips were moving, and it was indeed me saying it. Upon realizing that, my eyes shot open, but I didn't see my back patio, all I could see were red roses. I shook my head, hoping to clear my vision, and the roses seemed to dispurse, giving me a clear view of a girl standing with her back to me at the edge of our pool, which had at least a dozen red roses floating in it, blossoms only. I started a bit, and the girl looked over her shoulder at me, revealing bright blue eyes, and I realized it was Utena, dressed in her movie suit, complete with hat, hair styled short. I stared, and she smiled at me, then winked. I closed my eyes and layed back against the cover again, not quite feeling strong enough to hold myself up for that long, and feeling quite sure that what I was seeing was ~not~ accurate. After another minute or so, I was able to pull myself off the hot tub cover and sit at the edge of the pool (which no longer had floating roses, or Miss Utena standing beside it), dangling my legs in the water to further cool my body. After calling myself crazy a few times, I replaced the cover on the hot tub and went back inside. ^^; And I learned not to go into the hot tub with something heavy on my mind... or after watching the Utena movie...